Well you know a little about me so far, my name is Rach, I’m 26 and I am from a small town in Northern Ireland called Lurgan.
What you don’t know about me is, I’m overweight.
But this year changes everything.
Yep 2013 is a new start for me, I’ve ignored the weight gain over the last 4 – 5 years, and this year changes that. I am determined to do something about it this time!
I tried before but nothing really ever stuck. I would maybe get 2 weeks over me then sabotage myself again and again and again and AGAIN!
It wasn’t until the day of January 5th 2013 that something clicked with me. No longer able to enjoy wearing nice clothes, going out with friends or even life in general as I was now suffering with a sleep disorder better known as Sleep Apnea – I opened up my google chrome browser and typed….
“weight loss bootcamp ni”
I read about different camps, but they were all extortionately priced. I couldn’t afford the clothes in my size nevermind £1000! and that was just for one week of bootcamp. So I intensified my search and typed….
to which lead me to a page called impactfitnesscamp, where I read about how they lead weight loss bootcamp’s at a price I could afford AND the camp’s next start date was 7th Jan – 2 DAYS AWAY! which coincided with the date I would get my CPAP machine to aid my sleep disorder….BUT! it would mean starting it the day before my Birthday January 8th!
That night, I emailed the trainer Irene several times, and also done some facebook stalking and found her profile and messaged her through that aswell. Going to bed that night, I was so anxious, would Irene email me back and help me?
Maybe she would say no – maybe she would say yes, I didnt know. I tossed and turned the whole night hoping that my phone would ping with the sound of a facebook alert, finally after last checking my messages at 3.05am I must have fallen asleep.
I woke to Niki Minaj asking
♫Let’s go to the BEACH BEACH….♫
and was just thinking to myself, what a nice idea, yeah lets go when I opened my eyes and realised “SHIT! my phones ringing! I scrambled myself out of bed and grabbed my phone off the nightstand and answered “Hello..? :S”
“Hi is that Rachael? My name is Irene you emailed me with regards to my bootcamp.”
hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah!!!
My prayers had been answered
“Um yes that’s me”
Irene asked me a few questions about my intial fitness and weight. She was shocked and I could tell by the sound of her voice she had probably never had anyone as big as me join the camp before, but Irene was absolutely lovely and invited me along to try it out and see how I got on on the Monday 7th January, I was so excited BUT nervous, would everyone look at me and be disgusted, I knew I couldn’t even look in the mirror, it disgusted me so much. However I was going to go, I was going to climb out of this rut if it near killed me!
Diary Entry 6-01-2013
Night before bootcamp – I’m anxious. What will tomorrow bring? Who will be there? Will there be anybody my size there? It’s going to be hard but I have to do it, I’m afraid I’ll lose myself under my own weight. I have to save myself, my life, my health, my relationship, my family, my everything. When I look in the mirror I feel nothing but disgust, bury my head in sand and eat more food. I have blamed it on past events, but the truth is the weight was creeping on even before I realised it was. I hope tomorrow brings what I need. Night.
Diary Entry 07-01-2013 5.30 am
So tired, sleep was staggered last night. I was in bed by 11 pm, but should have went earlier!. it’s 5.32 am out there!! and pitch black outside. I could just go back to bed but this is DAY 1 of my new start. I have to do this!!! I can hear the tv going downstairs, Eamon must be down there, he starts his new job today I hope its all he wanted. Right I suppose time to get ready and go, wish me luck.
Diary Entry 07-01-2013 8.00 am
End of bootcamp morning 1, OMG OMG OMG I am actually ready to cry. I finished everything and feel brilliant, I wish I’d done this sooner! I’ve to go to Irene’s house tonight to get weighed, measured and photographed – I am NOT looking forward to that!
I’m home about an hour now and I’m beginning to feel the effects of this morning’s workout. I am quite stiff and my body didn’t react well to eating breakfast. I’m about to shower now and then I have to go to the hospital to collect my CPAP machine, which I am DREADING!
Diary Entry 08-01-2013
SORE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay it’s my birthday but, I have been crying since I went to bed last night, I am so sore it is unreal. What the hell? I am disgusted with myself that I have let myself get this way, I’m away to cry into my pillow it’s even sore to hold a pen.
I have come a long way from those diary entries just 6 weeks ago, with tomorrow morning being my sixth weigh in, I have lost 20lbs in total so far. My first week at boot-camp I lost 5lbs, the second week I lost the same, third week I lost 3lbs, fourth week I lost 3lbs and fifth week (last week) I lost 4lbs! I’m amazed at how far I’ve come. I hope you enjoyed reading a little about me, and I hope you continue to read my posts.
a little food for thought :
A year from now, you may wish you had started today- Robert Schuller